I need a song for inspiration. A song to dedicate. A song that I can truly relate to. I'm almost positive that this song is *It Only Hurts by Default* ... please listen to it!

it only hurts when your eyes are open
lies get tossed and truth is spoken
it only hurts when that door gets open
dreams are lost and hearts are broken

"A true apology is more than just acknowledgment of a mistake. It's recognition that something you have said or done has damaged a relationship-and that you care enough about that relationship to want it repaired and restored."
                                                                                                                                             -Norman Vincent Peale

i fall asleep with my friends around me
only place i know, i feel safe
i'm gonna call this home
the open road is still miles away
Hey nothing serious
we still have our fun
oh we had it once
windows open and close
that's just how it goes
don't it feel like sunshine afterall
the world we love forever, gone
we're only just as happy
as everyone else seems to think we are

Be with me here. It doesn't seem there's hope for me. I let you down. But I won't give in now. Not for any amount.

There is something I have been meaning to say. It does not come from my heart. Nothing that needs to be said to you comes from my heart anymore. For you have damaged it beyond repair. In my eyes you are nothing but a mouth. A mouth speaking of lies and mistakes. You were a mistake. You were a lie. That is what I needed to say.

GRAVITY.

and me, i'm in my bedroom
drawing in my notebook
cause my hand thinks i'm an artist
but my heart knows i'm a poet
it's just words, they mean...
so little to me, so little to me

This is my life.
I am both sad and happy,
& I'm trying to figure out how that could be.

 look at people holding hands in the hallways,
and I try to think how it all works.
At the school dances, I sit in
the background and I tap my toe,
and I wonder how many couples
will dance to "their song" in the hallways,
I see the girls wearing the guys' jackets,
and I think about the idea of property.
And I wonder if anyone is really happy.
I hope they are, I really hope they are

LEAVE COMMENTS<3

"And all I can taste is this moment and all I can breath is your life. Sooner or later it's over. I just don't want to miss you tonight." -Goo Goo Dolls

This secret business between us is killing me. I want more than to be the girl you secretly crave. Or is it a craving at all? Are the words you hand me only tools; weapons to trick me into sharing in your passion games? Are you so desperate that you use me? Or am I overexaggerating?

Many times we find ourselves wishing for the good times to return. The only way to allow good times to happen, are to make new ones. We forget this process of life. Good times, good memories, good fun repeats itself if we don't dwell on the past; instead live in the present.

I came for your questions of what you don't know
But you can't see the answers unless I go
So give me your hatred and give your diseased
Give me your tired and I'll take them with me
Cause I'm hanging here losing every part of me
Just to open your eyes to what you would never see
And to answer your questions there's no place that I'd rather be

The cliche sayings of how beautiful your smile is, how amazing your heart is, how vivid your eyes are can not even begin to describe just how perfect you are. That in itself is cliche.

A year from now don't count me out
If I see you in a crowd
It's like I'm already there cause I feel it somehow
I'm used to you then so get used to me now

The best and worst feeling in the world come to me in the same gust of feelings. My excitement, my fears, my dreams coming true, my nightmares haunting me. My feelings play me. They twist around inside me, teasing me. At the exact moment where I feel content and happy to be, the feeling of sadness sweeps over me. The reason mainly because I do not want the good feeling to end. I do not want the memories to fade. I do not want change to occur. The bad feelings take over the good, like a raincloud capturing the sun.

I wonder how it feels to be famous,
but wonder is as far as I will go.
Because I'd probably lose myself in all the pictures,
And end up being someone I don't know

I am sorry for the lack of entries. :)

Your voice is killing me.
Your words are hard as they come.
Thoughts that sit in here, fall like bullets to the floor.

Your heart is pulling me, the cut runs deeper as it flows.
Scars that cannot heal, the hurt is covered to the bone.
Cause every time it gets so complicated while I'm lying down in doubt.
I'll just tell myself I'm leaving here.

Cause I'm selfish and I'm cold and I feel like the world is ending.
Faithless and I'm fallen again.
Cause I'm selfish and I'm cold and I feel like we're all pretending.
Careless and I'm lonely again.

And I am torn on the inside.
The trust is dead in me, walls close higher all around.
The cross I can not bear feels like pressure coming down.
Until now the world was never jaded, yet I'm left here on my own to pick up the pieces.

Selfish and Cold - Revelation Theory

This song has so much meaning to me right now. wow like you have noooo idea!

You see into his eyes, vivid and beautiful. You see yourself in them, in his eyes. Too bad his eyes lie.

"i love people who make me laugh. 
    i honestly think its the thing i like most, 
    to laugh. it cures a multitude of ills. it's 
    probably the most important thing in a person."
         -- Audrey Hepburn

To every girl that feels lost inside, broken hearted. Who feels like no one understands. Just remember... when you fall at one point a boy is going to see you, and give you a hand to help you up from being put down. He'll love you and treat you the way you shoud be treated. If you have no hope, just keep looking he'll be there waiting.

This weekend went by too fast. What I had hoped for it wasn't fulfilled. Sometimes things just dont always work out the way we want them too..

I enjoy myself everywhere I go. I make the best out of life. I try to be excited when I know it won't be extraordinary. The second I let a tear of anger, sadness, jealousy slip.. then I will be found out. I do not need to be questioned. The wasted minutes of explaining myself to others are not worth it to me. I enjoy my emotional seclusion. The next time you see me frown, do not ask me why.

They all think they know me so well. They think I am predicatble and simple. There is a much more complex side to me than they think. They have me all wrong. Taking the time to get to know me does not interest them, they do not care. I just hope when someone finally does decide to care, they dig deeper than my simplicity and find my complexity.

I missed knocking on wood at 11:11. I am not supersticious but for some reason I feel like I just messed up big time.

I just hate the feeling of being the only one on the dancefloor with no one but yourself to sway with.